I give up.
I give in.
I cannot fight it,
This feeling within.

I can't get you out.
You won't go away.
I try to let go,
And you do nothing but stay.

My heart stops.
My breath is gone.
When I think of you,
My sweet love song.

I can't help but wonder.
I can't help but dream.
Still I'm trying to find out,
What this all means.

I have to hope.
I have to press on.
Whatever I do,
This feelings so strong.

I'm tortured, broken.
Crying, in pain.
Lost in despair,
In the pouring down rain.

I long for the healing.
To feel peace again.
But I'm ignored and rejected,
And refused yet again.

I have to continue.
I have to endure.
To persevere,
Like never before.

I seek out His face,
His will, His design.
And I always see you,
And your hand in mine.

It hurts me to know,
Just where you stand,
But is all of this,
Just a part of His plan?

If I told you my feelings,
And poured my heart out.
You'd do what you're doing,
And leave me without.

No communication.
No letters. No calls.
Even when we speak,
We're not speaking at all.

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
But what does that matter.
You don't listen anyway.

But I gave you that right.
With all I've said and done.
All the pain that I've caused,
With every single one.

I ask for forgiveness.
I apologize.
I say that I'm sorry,
For all of the lies.

For the ways that I've treated you,
And for the ways that I haven't.
For not putting you first,
And even for doing just that.

There are so many things,
I apologize for.
And so many things,
I don't want to do anymore.

But I'm only human,
Born into sin.
Always messing up,
Again, again, and again.

Some things take time,
And I'm learning to wait.
I'm trying be patient,
Even when things aren't that great.

I'm learning to love,
In more ways than one.
And as long as I live,
I'll never be done.

Sometimes I lose focus,
Or get ahead of myself.
Sometimes I get caught up,
In the way my heart melts.

When I think of your smile,
Your laugh and your grace.
When I look at a picture,
Of your beautiful face.

But I put those away,
Every picture I've got.
And the change that has happened,
It's not even a shock.

I still think about you,
Remember? You won't go away.
And my feelings grow stronger,
In almost every way.

I do what I can,
And that's all I can do.
And I still don't believe,
That I can get over you.

It's just not happening,
It's not taking place.
Even after,
I've given you all of this space.

It's true I still love you.
It's true I still care.
And that I want to be with you.
Sometimes it doesn't seem fair.

Because I know that I can't,
Even if you would let me.
I need to stay focused,
On The Lord, God, Almighty.

But I do miss your friendship.
I miss it SO MUCH.
Remember that time,
We played ball in the mud?

So many memories,
We've had SO MUCH fun.
But why did they stop?
Do they have to be done?

If I could only go back,
If I could just turn back time.
I'd break every clock,
And you'd forever be mine.

But if we stayed where we were,
If nothing had changed.
And there was no difference,
Everything was the same.

If we'd continued that path,
Then where would we be?
Out of work, out of school,
Out of luck, out of money?

So I thank you again,
For your obedience.
I've learned SO MUCH.
I'm even learning patience.

There are so many desires,
That I have in my heart.
But my focus is now,
Where it should've been from the start.

On our God above,
Seeking wholeheartedly,
The face of Christ,
And His perfect will for me.

I'm learning to worship,
With all that I am.
Sacrificing my all,
With all the strength that I can.

I pray for you daily,
Every chance that I get.
For God to bless you,
And for an annointing of His Spirit.

I want the best for you,
Know that I do.
I want you to be happy,
Know that it's true.

It hurts to see you sad,
And to know you're in pain.
And knowing I've caused it,
For that I'm ashamed.

I want to be friends,
But why's it so hard?
Am I really that bad?
Do I always take things to far?

My love,
I can't hide it.
The Lord knows,
That I've tried it.

Still you see right through me.
So these feelings I quit fighting.
There's no point in doing it.
There's no reason for hiding.

I've tried my best,
But I give up. I give in.
I cannot fight it.
Congradulations...you win.